Why is it that progress makes me lazy!??

As soon as I lose some weight or get some good results, my first thought is, "Sigh, well now I can splurge a little because I accomplished something!"

I realize this is part of the problem that got me here; to my unhealthy and overweight self.  I need to learn a new way of "celebration" that feels like a reward!  A friend of mine was cute; I weighed in on Tuesday and lost 3.7 lbs -- insert image of me jumping up and down (you'll have to use your imagination though because you'll not see that as a gif!).  She wanted to reward my hard work, but didn't want to sabotage my progress, so she gave me...

a small tube of toothpaste. 

I have been incredibly stressed the past few weeks.  I was shocked when I lost weight last week at our weigh in.  I doubt seriously that I will have lost this week.  I "fell off the wagon" in eating and exercising this past week.  It wasn't horrible (certainly nothing like how I might have eaten before I started this journey), but I'm not happy about it.

I realize that making the wrong choice and feeling bad about it is part of this process.  I can remember the next time how I feel afterwards and make better choices.

Still I am determined to focus on the positives (not to Susie Sunshine it all, but to keep myself from beating myself up -- because seriously, most of us do enough of this already!).

Positive:  still no soda for me.  I had a few sips of a cup at an event and didn't drink the rest. YAY!
Positive: was offered brownies and only ate half of a bite sized piece!  YAY!
Positive: I'm doing smoothies most morning and want a smoothie for lunch even.  I would like to keep doing this more!

Caution:  I have fallen into cereal a bit.  Not like I used to so there's my YAY! but cereal is an addiction that needs to be watched very carefully.  Another YAY, it was Wheat Chex and Organic Granola with Berries not Capt'n Crunch. 

Goal:  exercise 3x/week
Goal:  consistency in supplements
Goal:  2-3 days/week, 2 smoothies/day -- I did this last week for 2 days and felt great! 

I've also hit a big turning point in my life.
As of 9:57p tonight I have no volunteer responsibilities!
I am usually involved in something (kids school, church, friends, teaching, face painting -- something).  My last responsibility ended tonight and I am free to work on just my job and my family and spend time with friends and enjoy myself.

Of course, I am already scheming on what other things I can do with all this down time (all this downtime, I crack myself up really)...but for at least a month, I will do nothing.  Hopefull I'll make it to the end of the summer.  That would be great!

Maybe I can go back to weekly massage and acupuncture!  That makes a big difference and it would be great to do that again!

It's getting better all the time!!

Good news, I weighed in today with every expectation that I had gained weight.  I'm even on my cycle (sorry for the TMI) but it's an even bigger deal that I actually LOST 1 LB because of that TMI.  I'm so happy.  It means that even with my failure to exercise this week all my cookie neglect paid off.  I feel encouraged and excited that I may actually be doing this (not just able, but actively doing this).


The bad news is I am once again over committed and anxiety ridden and stressed because I've not left enough time to do some things and now I have to push myself to get it all complete.  I truly hate when I do this and yet it's a pattern I see.


Why is there SO MUCH that needs fixing and I'm seeing all of it now?  Is God focusing my "need to achieve" over commitment on myself?  Where I'll be so busy with drawing closer to him to manage what is going on in my heart, head and body that there is no room for anything else?


Hmmmm

I'll start by saying I sincerely doubt I could ever pull it off.
Not for a day, not for a week.
Certainly not for multiple weeks.
Not without a miraculously good attorney who wants to work for free to get me off for having killed someone.

So with all those caveats...
I am considering the HCG Diet.
I just wanted to give voice to it so I can then tell myself what I really think which is that this is not for me and I don't even think it's the healthiest way to lose weight.

I just keep seeing people losing weight on it.
So there.

I've been super busy with work lately and while I have much to say!
Got sick (again), however with the immunity IV I was able to schedule on day 1 of illness, I am bouncing back faster than ever.

Current plan of action:

• At work we have a Get Fit Challenge and I am a team captain.  Goal to exercise 3x/week and (obviously) lose weight.  There are cash incentives.
• Trying to get back on and be really consistent with my supplements.  Rather frustrated with myself for losing momentum as I will again have to go through the ramp up of not feeling well as they once again purge toxins from my body. 
• Looking into counseling and even hypnotherapy to help me with my (finally?) "admitting" I have a sugar addiction.  (note the caveat's there... I am still holding on by my fingernails there.)  Purchased additional supplements to help with cravings.
• Always need to drink more water.