I've been on Weight Watchers for 10 weeks (11 weeks?) and have lost the same 3 lbs several times.  I am terrible at tracking because it's laborious for me, but I do think that it's all a good idea.  Will I continue when they are done?  I'm not sure, but weighing in each week sure does keep you honest!  Maybe I should get a scale for my bathroom.


Still, after a women's retreat weekend including a chocolate fountain... I still lost (though a small amount - we are celebrating all victory at this point).


I am encouraged to push forward.  One of my fellow WW gals has lost 9lbs and that is pretty exciting.  So I want to try harder and stop allowing myself to languish in the same  place I've been for years -- eating whatever I want without regard to the consequences.


What does this mean?
It means I need to PLAN AHEAD!
This can ultimately be good.  If we do this as a family, it could be a nice healthy thing we all do together!  All make lunch for the next day.  It could be nice.


Right now though, my house is a disaster.  I need to pull the carpet up because after a dog who pee'd everywhere (he lives someplace else now) and a cat who is following suit -- it smells and I don't think any cleaning is going to help it.  I've always thought carpet in a main house with children is just silly anyway.  I just don't want it to look stupid if I pull it all up.  I get so easily overwhelmed by all there is to do.  My cleaning lady quit (she actually just stopped coming and I even tipped her weekly).  I have somebody else now, but I'm embarrassed.  I know I need help but part of me feels like I really need to do this myself.  I haven't felt that way before so is this something I'm supposed to do on my own?  Why does life have to be so hard (and these aren't even real problems in the scheme of life)?!


So, one step at a time.  


Goals this week:
Get downstairs clean.
Pull up carpet in dining room -- how can I cut it?  Will have to look into this.
Make lunch once.
Bring shake stuff in to work so I have it to eat there. :)


I had another goal and I accomplished it today.  I've been putting off making an appointment with another dermatologist for my daughter and I did that today.  I set an appointment on my cell and that made a difference.  I just need something to remind me.  
I have to find ways to get around myself to remember it all!


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My pregnant kitty is making a lot of noise.  I wonder if she's going into labor.  Sigh.  I want to be here when she is just in case, but the chances are slim that I will be.

today's prayer:
(OK, it's yesterday's prayer but I missed yesterday so I'm doing this one)

Deuteronomy 30:1
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Remember when I said I was blaming everything on the detox?  Well, here I go.
I had a bad weekend eating.  Not as bad as it would have been a few months ago, but by the new standards, still not great. (I was about to go back on that comment and say I actually ate pretty well, but then I went over my diet Friday night and I couldn't accurately type those words).


In addition... don't tell Kaci... I kind of didn't do all my supplements Saturday and Sunday.  I forgot them at home not once, but twice and then I thought... gosh, it's nice having no supplements, so I didn't take them on Sunday afternoon when I got home (and could have).  THAT is why I gained .8 lbs.  See, it's still because of detox. {twinkle}


So, weigh in at Weight Watchers today.  I was less than happy.  Lots of other people did really well so that's good! (sincerely)  One of the men asked about margaritas and we all gasped when we heard they average 9pts!  EEK!  He still lost almost 4 lbs this week so now I hate him. Only men lose weight that fast!  Sheesh.


So, the good thing about knowing I gained weight is that I won't gain anymore and it will serve to focus me on doing better this coming week.  I also joined a challenge to exercise for 10 to 15 minutes a day.  Which you know, I haven't really done yet today.  I'll have to go do some floor work and crunches before I lay down.


At Bible Study tonight we talked about all the distractions in life that keep us from hearing God's voice.  We've truly managed to create a culture that is ADD.  We need more entertainment constantly to keep our attention.  I am guilty of it too.  One of my favorite ways to spend time is watching a movie while surfing the Internet.  (usually on Pinterest)  I actually had to take a week off from Pinterest because my wrist hurt.  (sadness)  


I believe that behaving this way ultimately leads to dissatisfaction.  Because we program ourselves to always want a little more.  (well, maybe wanting more is part of the human condition, but the technology overload certainly adds fuel to the fire.  Perhaps living a slightly more organic life with fuller relationships we would be less self destructive.  


This is my goal.  Less self destruction.  I want the best God and life have for me. 


(The only word my spellchecker stopped on was Pinterest.  Who wrote this dictionary???)

I lost another 1.5 lbs!  So whatever else happened at the meeting tonight I was happy!
I know -- even though this is my first meeting because they offered to have me weigh in  last Thursday to get the ball rolling and allow them to calculate my daily points.  Any weight loss is a bonus.

Today I talked my son out of eating fast food.  He was hungry and coming home and wanted to drive through.  I just kept saying that he would feel better eating at home and how bad fast food is for you.  He opted to eat at home.  I am making a difference in my life and now in others.  It's nice.

I'll be reading over the info on Weight Watchers tomorrow.  Just no time tonight.  I only just got home and boy am I tired!  I actually WANTED to take a walk tonight.  It didn't happen, but I did want to and that really counts for something in my life.

I'm seeing my mind change.  The habits are still the same, but with awareness they will be conquered.  My biggest issues now are the habits I have and need to change and preparing with food so I can succeed.

I hope that my marriage and home life will continue to improve.  I'm looking forward to a better set up for us all so that we can really share our love for one another.

OK... tiredness is finally taking over.
Night all.