I have been incredibly stressed the past few weeks.  I was shocked when I lost weight last week at our weigh in.  I doubt seriously that I will have lost this week.  I "fell off the wagon" in eating and exercising this past week.  It wasn't horrible (certainly nothing like how I might have eaten before I started this journey), but I'm not happy about it.

I realize that making the wrong choice and feeling bad about it is part of this process.  I can remember the next time how I feel afterwards and make better choices.

Still I am determined to focus on the positives (not to Susie Sunshine it all, but to keep myself from beating myself up -- because seriously, most of us do enough of this already!).

Positive:  still no soda for me.  I had a few sips of a cup at an event and didn't drink the rest. YAY!
Positive: was offered brownies and only ate half of a bite sized piece!  YAY!
Positive: I'm doing smoothies most morning and want a smoothie for lunch even.  I would like to keep doing this more!

Caution:  I have fallen into cereal a bit.  Not like I used to so there's my YAY! but cereal is an addiction that needs to be watched very carefully.  Another YAY, it was Wheat Chex and Organic Granola with Berries not Capt'n Crunch. 

Goal:  exercise 3x/week
Goal:  consistency in supplements
Goal:  2-3 days/week, 2 smoothies/day -- I did this last week for 2 days and felt great! 

I've also hit a big turning point in my life.
As of 9:57p tonight I have no volunteer responsibilities!
I am usually involved in something (kids school, church, friends, teaching, face painting -- something).  My last responsibility ended tonight and I am free to work on just my job and my family and spend time with friends and enjoy myself.

Of course, I am already scheming on what other things I can do with all this down time (all this downtime, I crack myself up really)...but for at least a month, I will do nothing.  Hopefull I'll make it to the end of the summer.  That would be great!

Maybe I can go back to weekly massage and acupuncture!  That makes a big difference and it would be great to do that again!

It's getting better all the time!!

At work we are having a "get fit challenge."

I am a team leader and while I may not get fit myself, I will encourage my team to! (I actually will at least begin the process of getting fit.)
We have several goals we are hoping to meet.
An overall goal (mine is to lose 15 lbs in 12 weeks)
Weekly goals: exercise, nutrition & sleep

So I am down for:
exercise 3x/week for 30 mins (think sweat!)

And that for 2 days running I've significantly reduced sugar and...

Saw Kaci today and got to share the good news about my 2 lb weight loss.  (internet high 5)


We talked.  I swear I cost that girl money because I never stop talking! 
We hooked me up with the rest of my supplements and stage 2 of my detox starts tonight.
I find myself hoping I won't have a reaction to all the capsules like I did when I started, but I'm being smarter about food and water now so that should help.


Have I told you about my "magic pills"?  (stopping to look back and see... hold on)  OK, we haven't talked about them yet.  My magic pills started a few months ago when I first started seeing Kaci.  I came in to see here while having a systemic allergic reaction to something.  I was all red, itching like crazy, swelling -- not happy.  I don't think I stopped talking for 45 min.  Kaci was confident she could help me; especially with my "being hot all the time" issue.

Thus the "magic pills."  Herbal supplements used to balance my hormonally and heat wise.  They helped when I was (mistakenly) taking just 1 a day.  When I started taking the actual dosage they kind of changed my life!  I stopped sweating all day/every day!  I cannot tell you how wonderful that is!!!

So today I suddenly realized I am almost out of Magic Pills and that would be really really awful.  I took only half dose to ensure I had some for tomorrow.  By the time I got to see Kaci, I was flushed and red and hot (not in a good way).  Bam!  She gives me for Magic Pills and within 15 minutes I was OK again!

Plus!  She had another bottle ready for me to buy!

Does that mean I'm addicted?